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  • Cwink6
    started a topic Having trouble moving forward.

    Having trouble moving forward.

    Hello all, my name is Carl. I recently discovered this site, this is my 1st post. I'm 55 yrs old, heres my story. My stress/ anxiety is not all TC related, but it's where it began. I first noticed pain in lefty in June 2015, went to doctor 6/24, he thought I might have torsion, sent me to emergency room. There they performed ultrasound, found mass, referred to urologist on 7/1. He told me it was cancer and he would be removing lefty on 7/7. So orchiectomy was successful , I was back to work in 3 weeks, albeit still in considerable pain/ discomfort. 1st CT Scan was clear on the cancer front, but they found asbestos around my right lung, and a lesion on my liver, these things as you can imagine still bring great distress. Mom passed away in October 2015, my wife of 10 yrs left me in October 2016, said I seemed angry / distant the last year and a half. Now it's been nearly 2 yrs since surgery, no chemo or radiation necessary, but I've reached a point where I'm having trouble staying focused on anything, can't stop reliving / thinking about all the overwhelming moments that I've experienced in the last 2 yrs. My emotions are all out of whack, I cry frequently, sometimes uncontrollably. I can't do my job properly. I'm becoming withdrawn, don't like leaving my house. My confidence is gone. When I was diagnosed doc never mentioned I might experience some of these feelings a year and a half later, but I can't be the only one can I? Could this be effects of low T? Am I going crazy? I need help.

  • Davepet
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    Originally posted by Cwink6 View Post
    he referred me to my oncologist, said testosterone treatments can cause prostate cancer. .
    Your doc is incorrct, there is nothing I am aware of that says that TRT causes prostate cancer. You are no more likely to get prostate cancer than any guy with normal T levels. In any event, you should get your levels checked even if you don't do treatment, knowledge is power.

    Dave

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  • JoesMum
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    Hi Carl, you have two Mums replying to your posts. My son is in his 30th and have a son of his own. He was able to get rid of Stage 2 seminoma 3 months ago, and we are now waiting for the next test. I am glad you are feeling better. Take it one step at a time. One hour at a time, sometimes 15 mins at a time... Stay in touch.

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  • Cwink6
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    Hi Mum. It went ok. Doc prescribed anti depressants / anti anxiety meds, got me set up with psychologist on Monday. I don't like the meds, make me a little loopy, but it's been only 3 days, hopefully I'll adjust. I asked about testing testosterone level, he referred me to my oncologist, said testosterone treatments can cause prostate cancer. But I am feeling better, I finished a stressful job today at work, and the weekend is here! How is your son coming along, 17 is too young to deal with this.

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  • JoesMum
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    Hey Carl, how did your doctor visit go? how are you feeling?

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  • JoeTheAstronaut
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    Good luck, hope it went well for you!!

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  • Davepet
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    In addition to therapy, get your T levels checked, some of these problems may be due to low testosterone.You may have to insist that your doc order the test.

    Dave
    Last edited by Davepet; 06-09-17, 04:33 PM.

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  • JoesMum
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    Hi Carl,​Tuesday is only 2 days away. Yes you can do this. You have survived without a doc for a while now. see if you can go for a walk and get busy with your new guitar. Look on the positives - you don't have TC at the moment, and keep us posed.

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  • Cwink6
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    Thanks all. Your support is priceless. This morning I had an appt with my personal physician at 9:40 am. At 9:00 am his office called me to tell me he called in sick. New appt is Tuesday at 1:50. F*******CK!!!!!! I was hoping for some assurance before the holiday weekend.#icandothisicandothisicandothis

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  • RWA
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    Hi Carl,

    I am 40 yrs old married for now father of 4 boys ages 11 - 5. I started a tC bout in aug. 2012, IO, Chemo, good for awhile, PC-RPLND, Ascites complication ~12wks, good for awhile, intense surviellance for suspected recurrence (turned out to be nothing).

    at any rate evertime I felt I could take a deep breath the monkey was back. I had a period of time where I would get very anxious / angry / frustrated by situations, things, tasks, outside of my control, It helped to talk about it with a therapist, for me it helped to acknowledge that my situation had resulted in PTSD triggers. ultimately, awareness, tools for dealing with, and stability of my health have improved the situation. Through help I was able to adapt.

    Today I still have big uncertainty in my life, not so much health at moment, but marriage, not really sure if we will make it our not, but even this uncertainty I can deal with and live healthy through.

    Not saying that your situation is same as mine, but seeking help can be very productive, for me it was a lot about establishing context and understanding triggers.

    Best Wishes,

    ​Ross

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  • JoeTheAstronaut
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    Good on you, Cwink! Guitar building is a whole new world I would imagine, with lots of ideas and people to meet... Enjoy! Shame about arthritis and all, can you still play a bit?

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  • JoesMum
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    Hi Carl, sounds like you are getting this under control mate! Playing guitar is fantastic. Let us know what the doc suggests. In regards to having emotional swings when previously you were OK, this is what post TC is about... things that were easy and no problem before, now get stressful. We are here to support you. I understand that face to face support groups are much better, but we are here as your virtual support group, and I know from my TC-Mum experience that this is very important....

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  • Cwink6
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    Thanks for your reply JoeTheAstronaut. Yes I have an appointment Friday with my personal physician to discuss a direction to take. Funny you mention a new hobby. I've been a guitar player for many years, but arthritis and tendonitis don't let me play as long as I used to, so I recently bought a DIY guitar kit. I'm building a Fender Telecaster. I'm not very good at it, but it keeps My mind busy.

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  • JoeTheAstronaut
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    Hey man, it's tough, no question about it... Have you tried going to a psychologist or counselling? Also, doing something new to take your mind off things, something you care about like volunteering for a cause or picking up a new hobby or personal project can help too, that's what is helping me...

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  • Cwink6
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    Thank you Joesmum, Daniel Eye, and Trekga. Your feedback means EVERYTHING to me. My father is 83, and had a stroke last month. He is doing well, but I don't want to burden him with my "silly little problem". Also I'm a construction electrician and it's difficult to share this with my coworkers. I have been reading many posts on this site, including Steve Pakes thread, these have been very uplifting for me(between tears, very powerful). I've made an appt. with my doc to find a course to move forward. It's so hard to not be in control of my emotions. Example; Today I had to drive 120 miles to a job we completed to replace 1 damaged ceiling tile . On the way up I experienced mild anxiety, completed task, felt better,began driving home. About an hour in I'm thinking, wow, I feel very relaxed, haven't felt this calm in a while, driving is soothing. Then I got a message from the boss asking me to swing by another job to repair some lighting. Anxiety instantly ramped up to full speed. I began to shake and sweat and was very upset. This is what I've done for a living for 30 years, no sweat, why suddenly is it freaking me out? I called the boss and told him I couldn't do it, luckily he is very supportive of my situation. So I still have a job, but I'm afraid I won't for long if I don't "Man Up", but manning up only makes it worse, it seems I must embrace the new outpouring of emotions.#spiralingnonstop

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