I don't think winning is always defined by coming in first or even finishing for that matter... but more by our honest efforts. You've been through a lot and I applaud you for your efforts.
I encourage you to try again someday if that us what it would take to put this behind you. I ran my first 10k race in 34 years on mothers day, finishing 42 instead of the second place all those years ago, but I finished without walking and 1.5 minutes ahead of my target time.
And as for celebrating, I get my next "all clear" results back in two days. That's the plan anyway!
Go ahead Alex, celebrate your effort and anything else you can think of.
Feb 15 - Thyroidectomy - (left side) - Benign, July 3 - Diagnosed / July 7 - Right I/O, Aug 4 - Seminoma - 2.7cm - Surveillance
July 30 - 13 Months Results - CT=Relapse, 3cm node, blood work normal.
Nov 6th - Finished BEPx3.
Dec 6th - CT results show node reduced to 6mm. Back on surveillance.
Mar 5th - Got all clear results for my mom's birthday.